Suicide Risk And Mental Disorders

I am a risk, and I can’t quickly get rid of my inner struggle suddenly. I am safe and not feeling suicidal at the moment.

My Journey Of Inner Struggle

There are people suffering from suicide risk and mental disorders. However, I’m sure I’ll get rid of my suicidal risk and mental disorder eventually. In fact, I can’t remember a time that I wasn’t a mentally disturbed suicidal risk because I think about doing it almost every day. Suicidal risk and mental disorder is a bit scary and exciting at the same time. I know I can have the best day of my life, but once that happiness is over, suicidal risk and mental disorder start to linger.

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Suicide Risk In Mental Clients

My Suicidal Risk And Mental Disorder

I wake up most mornings internally discussing I would be better off dead. I feel that my friends and family would be better off without me. I think about things that make me want to commit suicide. It’s a different kind of feeling because I know I wasn’t supposed to feel suicidal, but I couldn’t help it. It’s like an actual itch that I can’t scratch. It’s as if there’s a dark cloud of mental disorder and suicide that shrouds all over me. Again, I couldn’t mend my suicidal thoughts and mental disorder.

“In neurotic depression, the conflict is experienced as internal. You look in the mirror and think you’re a slob, fat or pimply or balding. You say something incorrect in class and think how stupid you are. You move through life as if you are a short-tempered nanny with an ugly or annoying baby. Your depressive lens for interpreting the reactions of other people makes you want them to agree with you that the baby is an intolerable burden,” writes Michael Karson Ph.D., J.D.

People Don’t Understand Suicidal Risk And Mental Disorder

“Without experiencing that others know us, or are able to, we’re left feeling alone — at times, despairingly so,” writes Leon F Seltzer Ph.D.

People may tell me that they know how I am mentally and emotionally. But the truth is, they don’t. I’m drowning with unwanted suicidal risk emotions, and I fell like there’s no air to breathe. I no longer have that energy to come down from suicidal risk and mental disorder crisis. I know this feeling is not my reality, and I am sure I have things to live for, but it seems not enough to end my suicidal risk and mental disorder. I know that people around me love me so much, and those who are displeased with me don’t matter, but who cares? People often say that things might get better despite my suicidal risk and mental disorder, but how? When?

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Suicidal Risk And Mental Disorder: Exactly Where I Am Right Now

A suicidal and mentally disturbed person like me lives in dark places and suicidal risk areas. It isn’t just one day that I perfectly know when to decide to end it. It feels like years of suicide risk and mental disorder already, even on good days. This feeling I have right now creates something that makes me want to hate everyone else in this world. It makes me a suicidal risk. It’s not like I’m enjoying my situation, I sincerely swear I would want this suicide risk and mental disorder to disappear. But as of now, I just can’t.

For me, every day is a hard journey to get stronger and happier with this suicidal risk and mental disorder. Though I know those are not impossible to attain with my suicide risk and mental disorder, it still doesn’t make any sense to me. I can’t think of anything right now because I feel like the only way to stop me from being a suicidal risk is to get some sleep. But then again, I know I have to wake up and endure this mental pain of suicide risk and mental disorder. I am lonely, hopeless, anxious, depressed, and suicidal.

Final Thoughts

So why do I want to commit suicide? Well, I don’t know. Maybe it’s because I am just tired and fed up with my life. Or maybe, just maybe, I don’t deserve to live at all. Whatever it is, I know one thing is for sure, I’m not mentally okay, and I need mental and suicidal help for my suicide risk and mental disorder.

“It is important that you address the cause or causes of your suicidal thoughts in as far as possible, for example, a mental disorder such as depression or alcohol dependence, a difficult life situation, or painful memories,” writes Neel Burton M.D.